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Tony Ferguson Blames Alcohol, Adrenaline, and His Own Father for ‘TUF 13′ Meltdown

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There’s a very good chance that Tony Ferguson will be the next winner of The Ultimate Fighter. So it’s a shame that his primary legacy from the show — at least for the people who actually watched it — is the moment from this week’s episode when he attacked his own teammate Charlie Rader then needled Rader about having his son taken from him. It was particularly shocking because Ferguson hadn’t previously shown any signs of being a mean-spirited drunk. Now, he has to expect a small chorus of boos when he enters the Octagon at the Palms Casino Resort in Las Vegas next Saturday. In his guest blog for, Ferguson tried to explain the circumstances that transformed him from humble front-runner to TUF 13‘s biggest heel:

You first have to understand we started drinking not long after we had just got done fighting. We had also done the semi-final picks. I think part of me brought the fight home since my real fight with Ryan ended so fast. When you bring alcohol into the mix, it was just bad from there.

We all drank a lot. It started out with shots of Patron and moved to Jim Beam. Miller Lites were mixed in the entire time. We weren’t just drinking to relax. We were going hard core. Everyone was drinking, too, although maybe not as much as some of us.

Things got out of hand fast. My adrenaline was still going. Things were beginning to escalate around me. They didn’t show this, but Shamar Bailey got pissed after Ramsey started dancing on him. That helped to set things in motion.

Throughout the show, I tried to keep calm and poised. I excused myself from a lot of conversations or just insane bulls–t. I was trying to stay focused.

That all went away fast. Charlie Rader poured water on my head, but at the time I thought it was beer. I couldn’t understand why he would do something like that, even as minor as it may seem now. I had a short fuse. I’m usually not like that. When I saw myself, it was honestly kind of creepy.

Unfortunately, everyone saw The Boogeyman came out. That’s a side of my personality I usually only see in the cage, but somehow Charlie brought it out in real life. Something just snapped and I thought “This guy is your enemy now”. Rather than try to bring people close to me, I was pushing everyone away.

Why did I bring up Charlie’s son? I have no idea, but I have a guess. My birth father wasn’t there for me growing up. Somehow Charlie’s situation mixed in with my adrenaline from fighting and the booze all worked together to bring up my own issues. I learned a lot about myself watching that on tape and how I felt about certain things in my life. I was under a lot of pressure, I was trying to bottle up frustration and it didn’t work. Well, it worked for a while, but ultimately did not.

I said some things I shouldn’t have said. I was in a weird place. I was having crazy dreams in that house. The entire experience took me out of my own independence and removed all of my release valves.

I really regret saying what I said to Charlie and we’ve talked about it since the incident. I’ve spoke to Clay Harvison and Chuck, too. We are in a better place now than we were that night.

Part of me feels like this is what the producers wanted. Every season there is someone who cracks. It sucks it had to be me, but I’ve never lived in a house full of fighters competing against each other. That alcohol is also there for a reason. Maybe subconsciously I needed that to happen so I could fight Charlie and Chuck who were my friends in the house at the time.

The really weird part was how drunk I got. When I woke up the next morning, I didn’t remember much. I had a scar on my left arm, didn’t know where it came from. I started cleaning up and was basically none the wiser. But no one wanted to talk to me and who can blame them?

The last I will say is maybe all of this is related to me growing up angry. I only met my father two years ago. But I never wanted to bore anyone with my stories. My attitude was that no one cares about my problems, so I’ll just keep them to myself. That didn’t work, but that’s what I was working with when I was in the house at that time.

I’m sorry to all who I disappointed, but I want you all to know I haven’t had a drink at all during this camp. I’m training hard and staying on track. I’m living a healthy life, physically and emotionally. Thanks for all of the support over these past few weeks and watching me fight. If you want to contact me, get at me on Twitter or Facebook.

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KarmaAteMyCat- May 28, 2011 at 9:22 am

We don't agree often but I am with you dead on in this one brother.
fatbellyfrank- May 27, 2011 at 9:42 pm
Weell what do ya know, people who cant handle liquor, get water poured on em and discussions of custody issues has been dragged out again on TUF, Southworth, Koschek and Leben wtached this episode with wry amusement, been there, done that and they wanna know if their getting royalty checks
dranokills- May 27, 2011 at 6:12 pm
Am I the only one who just couldn't give a shit about any of these assclowns this season? I don't care who wins or loses, these are the most boring fighters on TUF yet, and with ZERO tension with the coaches and knowing that Brock is to busy filling his abdomen with his own shit and trying to die to get crushed By Junior, I just find this whole thing very ho-hum.
coolperson- May 27, 2011 at 5:38 pm
He lost all my respect. Fuckin douche-bag
djp1988- May 27, 2011 at 12:36 pm
Man, that was a really long winded way of saying he's an excuse making asshole.
SquidInk- May 27, 2011 at 11:58 am
Wow. Look at all the Tony Ferguson apologists.

The guy flipped out over having water poured on him, then took wrestling around too far, then took pot shots at another guy's family. Own up to your shit. Everybody in the house was goofing around, but you couldn't hold your liquor and you acted like an ass. Raise your hand and say "I fucked up."

I can't believe the amount of people pointing fingers at Charlie here. Regardless of what Charlie's situation at home is, Tony has no place bringing it up. Period.
rogerw- May 27, 2011 at 11:55 am
Sounds very sincere for that sort of apology, I believe he's really sorry and not just pretending because he came off as an ass. What more can you ask of someone than to try to learn from one's mistakes?
FrontKick Dentist- May 27, 2011 at 11:28 am
Drunk and fightin on tequila white lightnin.
ReDx- May 27, 2011 at 11:23 am
This article is a dead giveaway that he's going to beat Chuck.
just some dong- May 27, 2011 at 9:54 am
Oh come on. Who hasn't gotten way too fucked up on hard liquor before and made a complete ass of themselves? I've done it countless times. You drink enough liquor and you're capable of anything. Absolutely no harm was done in this situation. Sticks and stones, man.
edhedicus- May 27, 2011 at 9:49 am
@RwilsonR- You hit the nail on the head. While Tony was a douche for going at him like he did, Charlie has to man up and be a dad. In most states, custody and child support are mutualy exclusive. If you are a deadbeat, they will not take away your visitation rights. So if he isnt seeing his kid, it is his choice. he appearantly does not want to be a father, he just wants to get the child support agency off his back. Fuck both of these douchebags!
hooligun- May 27, 2011 at 9:42 am
hehe props to all who called him a cunt. nice touch.

having said that, it was the best episode of the season thanks to Chucks knuckles and every season needs an asshole right?
danomite- May 27, 2011 at 8:32 am
fatherless bastard...
omunto- May 27, 2011 at 8:27 am
cynical. Apparently I'm also a horrid speller.
omunto- May 27, 2011 at 8:26 am
RwilsonR wins logical thought process of the day award. I was thinking the same way, but I figured its just because I'm a synical asshole. But yeah I hold down a 40 hour a week office job and fight, its not impossible. I think your kid is worth picking up a real job to pay child support. Obviously we dont know any details so I wouldn't go beyond that on my speculation, but I don't think thats an unfair assumption.
LOKI- May 27, 2011 at 8:21 am
On one hand after 13 seasons of this show these jagoffs still dont know what happens when 16's alpha-male wannabes are issolated from the real world with only booze and each other to keep them ammused?
Two, if you dont want your personal infomation used against you dont put it out there or at least have the balls to own it, dont get all weepy because some drunk dude you dont really know, shouldnt give 2 shits about and after a month or so will most likely never see again, asks you a simple jabbing question. I mean everyone in the house seemed to act like Tony was crossing some terrible line into the DONT room...I really dont get it. Man up and move on.
And most of all when you have a drunken disagreement with said jagoff, dont under any circumstances take his face into your hands like you are talking to a woman or a child and say 'look me in the eyes and tell me that we are OK.' That kind of dickesh condecention will get you more than reminded that you are an absantee father with me.
Blackleg- May 27, 2011 at 7:55 am
Fuck that guy. "It's all because of someone else not ME!" We all remember this douche talking about what a "class act" he is right? I like that he even tries to lay it off on the producers, yeah I'm sure they ran with that shit but they didn't make you say the words scumbag.
SnackDaddy- May 27, 2011 at 7:54 am
these aren't your average joes we're talking about here and this ain't no regular job.
Nut Puncher 9000- May 27, 2011 at 7:49 am
Oh he has father issues - waaaaa
oh he has I cant hold my liquor issues - waaaaa

I have these fucking idiots are on TUF and have not even won, I dont give a fuck issues.
White_Boy- May 27, 2011 at 7:45 am
look at the combination of the first 3 tags: absent parents, alcohol, excuses.

story of my life.
Seoul Brother- May 27, 2011 at 7:39 am
FaH Q NL15: It doesn't matter if he was doing body shots of Patron Gold off of Arianny's titties or if he was drinking rotgut moonshine that Junie Browning's uncle/brother whipped up. If you can't hold your fuckin' booze, and you blame it on "but the other jackasses were drinkin' too" and "we were going hardcore," you're a goddamned fucking bitch.
RearNakedSpoon- May 27, 2011 at 7:38 am
Well it makes sense so I will go back to not caring about him instead of wishing him bad luck.
FaH Q NL15- May 27, 2011 at 7:35 am
Seoul Brother- I completely agree that getting "hardcore" with miller-lites sounds like pussy shit, but did you miss the patron and jim-beam? Things tend to get a little out of hand for me when takin shots of tequila and whiskey, then washin em down with some brewskies
RwilsonR- May 27, 2011 at 7:35 am
I'm also not very sympathetic to Charlie's situation, although Charlie seems like a sincerely nice guy. We weren't given the details on his custody issue, but from what they did give, it sounds like he fails to pay child support so the judge took all custody rights away. Really the only situation where he wouldn't be allowed to see his kid at all, but money would fix it. So what the fuck is he doing trying to pursue his dreams of being a fighter. Go get a real job and pay your child support, you selfish asshole! Go work at fucking McDonalds, and make sure your kid has clothes on their back and food to eat.
Now maybe there is more to the situation. There always is. But if a few grand can fix the issue, then he needs to stop worrying about his own dreams and go be a fucking father before he creates another Tony.
Do you want to be a fucking father???
SnackDaddy- May 27, 2011 at 7:34 am
He gives other explanations too and they all seem pretty legit. The high of a victory, combined with alcohol would do that to you.